Happy Halloween

Growing up my family and I celebrated Halloween in a slightly different way from others. We would play games like Candy Land, Monopoly, and Matching games that my mom made we even carved pumpkins. It was fun for the most part. Now I have a niece and nephew to share that with. Although most kids go out and trick or treat, we stayed in and watched movies and played music. Later on in the night we painted the pumpkins we got from the pumpkin patch and let me tell you my nephew made the biggest mess, but it was fun. he literally painted his leg through his pants. His sister even decided she wanted to paint, LOL. After our painting session we let him break a piñata. At first, he didn't want to he just wanted to go into the little hole that you put the candy in. However, after much persuasion he started hitting it. It was too cute seeing him let his baby anger out on it, LOL. All in all,
it was fun. 

My Experience Witnessing Childbirth

 When I found out my sister was going into labor with my nephew I was pretty excited. I was ready to meet my nephew, after all he was the first. That night we were taking shifts sitting with her and counting how close her contractions were. It was my turn, and let me tell you it was not fun. I can't tell you how tired I was I don't exactly remember what time it was or how long I was laying with her. I do remember that she was gripping my jacket like her life depended on it and the fact that it was cold. 

    Eventually we made it into the hospital and for the first few hours I was sitting in the waiting area with my little sister waiting for the announcement that she was pushing. Time went by very slowly and I was tired but I didn't sleep. Eventually I was able to go back to the room and stay till after my nephew was born. In the room it was my sister boyfriend, my mom, and I. She was able to have three people in the room as she gave birth. When the time came for her to push I remember that everything went fast. The doctors rushed in and set up what they needed and got to work. I stood in the corner on the phone with her other sister just watching. All I heard was the doctors telling her to push and then I saw my nephew looking like a pale little alien. I was happy and crying. It was a beautiful experience. Although it happened so fast I remember every single detail, and when my nephew gets older I will tell him how his YaYa cried looking at his little ugly baby face. LOL. 

Worry

 

Lately I have been in a little rut. I feel like I could do better with my time but I have zero motivation to do anything. Honestly I think that is what it boils down to, no motivation. I want to have money to do some more of the things I want to do, however I no motivation to work. It's like a never ending cycle. I have been thinking and I feel like I need to make a plan for myseld to do better and make sure I am getting good grades and keeping them up. I don't want to fail and I feel like I won't, but I see myself on a path where I won't succeed. I don't want nor do I need that. So in order for me to reach the level of success want to achieve I will schedule out my days and follow that schedule. I have manifest and speak what I want into existence. From here on out I will think positive!

College vs. High School

I kind of already knew that high school and college was different, and I was right. In my experience so far it is very refreshing to know that college is less stressful than high school. In high school there is a lot more stress, not just with school work, but with finding your friend group and living up to other people's expectations. The stress if your teacher's, peers, and parents is a lot to deal with as a teenager. In college its all up to you and people don't judge you, at least not openly and in your face. Yeah college is a lot of work but all those other factors in high school are eliminated. However in college you are an ADULT and there are new problems. Balancing work and school is hard and some work places may or may not work with your work schedule. The only thing for me is that I am a huge procrastinator and the work will pile up on you and no one will hold your hand and tell you "hey this assignment is due soon". Teachers will not sit and hold your hand like they do in high school so you have to stay on top of your work. All in all college isn't bad but its not easy either. You have your work cut out for you when you attend college.